I have P.C.O.S, and have been trying to conceive for more than 15 years. It has only been 2 years since my diagnosis, and I have tried several things. Over the years, I have been feeling like Melissa Tome in "My cousin Vinny" when she is talking to Joe Peshi and says " My clock is ticking like this" and she is stomping her foot. -funny- I felt so bad when 2 of my friends got pregnant, and I could not go to the baby shower. I remember one morning at our Christian meeting, during a song, one was standing with her husband, and he put his hand on mer stomach. I broke down and started to cry. I feel so guilty for not being able to give my husband a child. He wants one as bad as I do. He is the most wonderful man on the planet, and is so supportive. And that seems to make it worse! Sometimes I feel I don't deserve to be treated so well. I don't even feel like a woman, or even a person. Most people know that I have this problem, but they don't know how bad it bothers me. My friends understand why I did not attend the showers, but it does bother me that I can't even celebrate with them. I feel bad!
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