So back in January my DH was diagnosed with IF - low sperm count. Through a lot of tests we found out he has good ones but only about five million. He is turning 30 in three weeks and I am 25 - we have been together for six years and married for two. Since the diagnoses I have felt a huge range of emotions but the one that has stuck with me is anger toward him. I have been unable to make this anger go away and ti kills me inside. I keep saying to myself that I could go off and be with someone else and get pregnant very easily but no, I'm 25 and dealing with REs and IUIs and all this crap. I feel so guilty because I am not this person and I don't even tell him that I am angry at him because I know it is not his fault. I don't know what to do. It is such a struggle to deal with this new person that I have to be - I think that it might have been easier if the problem was with me. Does anyone else has this problem - this anger at their IF partner? Am I a bad wife?
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