My birthday is coming up in about 3 weeks. I'll be 30. I'm dreading it. I know as far as age goes it's still young. That's not the point. I'm sure you already know why I'm dreading it. Soon I'll be in my thirties and dealing with infertiliy. All my friends that have turned 30 say they didn't mind turning 30. I look back at my life and what I want most still hasn't happened. I did not picture my life this way. I f I would have known I wasn't gonna have any kids by now I would done so many things different. I would have took more classes, traveled more, worked harder. Maybe even never have gotten married. Don't get me wrong i love husband but I got married with the expectation of having a family. I am not looking forward to my birthday. I don't want time to keep going. I want it to stop and wait for me to catch up.
Posts You May Be Interested In
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...