Hi, I have been trying to concieve for a little over a year now. I have never had regular periods but I had every one including my gyn tell me there is nothing to worry about and that I will be fine because I am still in my 20's. My husband and I hang out in a click of about 3 other couples. We are more like an extended family. One of the girls had a child 2 1/2 yrs ago and admitted to not being very maternal and said she would never have anymore children (there is a long story about this girl but too long to get into), one of the other girls and I realized we wanted to have a child around the same time and the other girl was undecided about whether or not she wanted to become a parent. Well, about a year ago I decided I wanted to start trying and I was so excited that my mistake was announcing it to the world. The girl who was not maternal decided out of no where she would start trying too (she needs to be center of attention). Of course I tried for about 3 months, the non maternal girl got preggers the first try. She is now 7 months. The girl who wanted to have a child around the same time as me waited a while and now she is pregnant 3 1/2 monts (I am truly happy for her) and the girl who wasn't sure she wanted to get pregnant, well...it just kind of happened for her and she wasn't sure whether she was happy about it or not (but I know she will make a great mom) and then there is me...not pregnant and have fertility issues. I was devastated at first. My Mom told me its just not my time, and I was angry. Its okay that its not my time but did it have to be all 3 of there time at the same time that I am going through this? Its a little hard for me to be around them at times. Especially since I feel I am there for them but I don't feel comfortable telling them that the fertility problems are weighing on my heart because I don't want them to feel uncomfortable around me. I guess I kind of feel like I am in a really bad movie. I am happy for them (at least 2 of them anyway..lol) but I am hurting for me and I don't feel like I have anyone to share it with. Sorry for rambling.
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