I go to my RE tomorrow for the third time in a week to check the size of my eggs so we know when our next IUI will be. I had problems stimulating follicle growth and ovulating, but since letrozole and brevile I have had 1-3 eggs every IUI. This one coming up will be my 5th and my DH and I have decided to only do 6. My DH unfortunatly has a low sperm count and post wash for our inseminations we only had 1-5mm to work with. Our RE said they have gotten pregnancys with a least 1mm but also said he thinks it's the low count is causing us not to get pregnant since each time has been a failuer. We can't afford IVF and emotinally couldn't go through it right now, so next month is the end of the road for us. I know miracles happen and everyone seems to have a story of someone they know who couldn't have children and it magically happened. But call it womens intuituion or maybe just a bad attitude, I feel that it's just not going to happen to us. Is my negative feelings holding us back? Do I dare hope for something I have no control over and risk the devesting emotions when it dosen't happen? I feel like praying and hoping for it is only going to make it harder to handle the reality of it not happening, but I also don't want to wonder if my negative feeling held us back. Please share your thoughts or feelings, so often only the success stories are shared. How do all of you deal with all the negative feelings.
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