Last night was a really bad night for me. I cried myself to sleep for the upteen millionth time. I got my period again. I would think that by now after 10 years I would eventually get used to this. my husband tries to console me but he just isnt really good at it. He keeps telling me over and over that I need to go see a therapist to help me deal with my infertility. I dont see how that is gonna make me feel any better, they cant give me a baby! We actually fight over it, I get really insulted everytime he tells me that.Have any of you seen a therapist for this? Has it worked, did it make you feel any better? I dont want to go pour my heart out to someone that doesnt know what I am going thru that is why I talk to all of you. I know that you know how I feel. My husband says that I am so mean and hatefully anymore. I am just so tired of waiting and having test after test, medicine , poking and proding, ultra sounds ,inseminations, all the money it cost that I dont really have and still no baby!!!! I just get so upset and quite frankly jealous of these people with kids. What did I do so wrong that I dont deserve to have a baby? I get so upset when these babys are having babies or when these women that dont want to have them get pregnant and dont take care of them or even worse. I would be the best mom not that I am sayin that I deserve it more than anyont else but I at least deserve it. i just just needed to vent.
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