So whenever I go on myspace i find someone who i either grew up with or known for a while is pregnant I go crazy. Not only that but whenever a family member is telling me about another family member who is pregnant after a short time of trying. Ya know who i'm referring to? the people who don't want kids, claim they're not trying, and end up having three? i just get so mad! i say things (not to them but to my husband and gf's) like "like THEY need a kid! what's so great about it anyways? oh sure they'll be crying in 9 mos when daddy wants nothing to do with them yadda yadda yadda". then i cry for hours regretting the words i said, try to be happy for them , and pray for healthy births with my heart crushed because well...i want a kid too. maybe i'm just crying for happiness and see these folks with their little pregnant pictures and their smiling faces and I assume thats "happiness". oh and one of my friends mom (whos daughter i just recently discovered is due in october) has told me "babies don't alway bring happiness you just need to overcome your emotions" which is true but....i don't know. i can't even look at a pregnant woman without these "emotions" ripping me up and causing me to freak out inside. whats wrong with me?
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