so yesterday my husbands cousin invites me and my husband and My husbands brother danny and his girlfriend samantha over to her house for game nite. I was so happy I went out and brought the newlywed dvd game I thought we were going to have a great time. when we get there my husbands cousin is on the phone with my mother in law and she talking really quietly it made me feel really paranoid so everyone else arrives I go out for two seconds to have a ciggerette and when I get back in the house my husbands cousin is like danny and samantha have to tell you something and then they tell me that shes having a baby There both only 18 have been dating less than a year and dont have two pennies to rub together. I almost fell to the floor I felt tears starting to sting my eyes and all I could tell myself was dont cry just dont start to cry. I really thought me and my husband were going to be the first to have a baby my husband has two other brothers neither one is married yet. as soon as we walked out of the house to go home I started crying and I cried myself to sleep. All I could think about is how can I go to any more family functions and see her getting bigger how can I go to her baby shower . THIS isnt fair I feel like god is really beating me down I am a good person I pray but god isnt hearing me and you know what everyone says god has a plan for all of us Im starting to believe mabe he doesnt mabe just mabe life isnt fair no matter how good of a person you are Ive lost my faith. and the worst part is when they were telling me samantha was like you know we didnt plan this and I said well when you have unprotected sex thats what happens . God to careless teenagers can create a new life but to adults who do right everyday of there life struggle to bring life into the world ... How is that fair? I read thru peoples profiles and some have been trying for 4 or 5 years so when someone says dont worry it will happen sometimes after trying for so long that answer just cant cut it any more. Im starting to think are we fooling ourselves ??????
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