To most of you, you may think I'm been silly to even feel the way I do with me only been 23. But the problem is. I was with my 1st real partner from been 16 to 19, we lived together and had unprotected sex on a daily basis and nothing ever happened, not even a late period or any scare like this. To be honest all I thought was that there must be some kind of problem with him as it couldn't be anything to do with me! We lived together in our own house and we weren't actually planning a baby as we were both very young, I suppose it was just silly of me now to have not used anything but after about a year I thought it was abit strange that nothing had ever happened. I know he did not have any sti's as I was his first partner and him mine. Neway things started goin downhill and we ended up splitting up. We both found new partners and started living our lives as we had spent so long trapped so young with each other. Then it happened I found out that his new girlfriend was pregnant. If I'm honest this absolutely gutted me as I realised that the problem must have obviously been with me and not him after all. I tried to blank this out of my mind and just went on to believe things that I had read such as Incompatibility in partners causing nothing to happen etc. I put everything to the back of my mind and started enjoying myself my new partner is 9 years older than me but treats me like a princess! He really is the love of my life. We did the holliays etc then we bought a house together. For the first 2years I used the contraceptive pill as I believed that something may happen and did not feel ready for this yet. However when I was just over 21 we had a conversation one night about children and he did say that he would like them and I gave in and also admitted that I really did too. So rather than plan anything we both made the decision together to stop using my pill and just wait for if and when anything happened. I have now nearly been off my pill for 3 years and nothing has happened not even a late period. After about a year I started feeling very down about it as I know there is something wrong with me, I started feeling very tearful when I saw families out and about and couldn't understand why this isn't happening for me. Now its getting to the point where most of my friends have children and whenever I see them I just feel like crying. I get this overwhelming feeling inside me that I can't get out of my head and can't overcome. It's becoming to take over my life as I am taking it out on everyone around me. I'm healthy very rarely drink and only have an occasional cigarette when I do have a drink. I don't know how long to leave things before a GP will look into my situation but don't want to leave it too long. My partner is 32 now and he would make a great dad,he's so good with his nieces and also his godson it just comes so natural to him. I know there is definately no problem with him as his previous relationship broke apart due to his partner having an unagreed termination. I am really sorry to leave my life story down here to you all but I'm just looking for some advice on what to do and whether or not a gp would look into this problem for me. I will be 24 in a few months making it nearly 3 years with no contraception as I said earlier. I have read that once you reach 25 your fertility decreases anyway and don't know if this is true but would just really appreciate some help or advice from somebody who understands what I am going through having been or goin through such a heart acheing problem themselves. If you are reading this then I greatly appreciate you even taking the time out to read. Chloe x x
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