Where do I start,,? Ill give you my story. At the age of 11 I had heavy cycles yet mom thought nothing of it, she simply thought I was a child who had no idea how to use a tampon ha, well at the age of 16 I had uncontrollable bleeding for almost a whole month and rushed to the doctor to find out that my uterus had been tilted completely backwards and sitting on a major nerve that could of killed me. so at that age I had surgery and my first exam scared as scare can be. The docs.resulted to a uterin suspension. at the age of 25 I tried to concieve with my other half at the time and did the clomid, over and over and doctor after doctor and all the way up to 100 for clomid. and nothing, I seriousely believe that this led to my 7year practically married relationship to an end. found my self single again for many years until the age of 30 fell in love with my bf and at 35 engaged and married. Tried again result to over10 surgeries and going under for cyst removal, endometriosis, pulip in front of the uterus etc etc... I have been told so many things and promised so many others, my husband and I have tried IUI, and IVF twice, we drained our bank account and had to stop not because we wanted to but because we had to. I have gone trough major depression not only bcs of the failed INF. but because I Honestly have no support. My sisters have distant themselves from me like Im some desease, they stop inviting me to kids partys,that led to any parties. Constantly talking or whispering behind my back, It has been throughn in my face " youcant have kids" Ive felt suicidal, I dont understand why me ? what did I do to deserve this? I never blame GOD, I love him reguardless of it all, I feel like all I have in this world is my DH, who supports me 100% I honestly cry everyday. My parents are both deseased so its not like i can speak to eather one of them. All I want is to have my mirical and I cant and I dont understand why? we are now on a rest for 5months or so, btw im now 36, im so scared that ill end up with no family, esp. if i cannot have my own. Please GOD is all i say every day all day. Please give me your support.
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