I never realized how painful infertility was how devestating it can be to marriges dreams hopes and womenhood. I always asumed it was just me that felt this pain and no one could relate to everything that I felt all the fears that I held that I would not ever be a mother no matter the age or how many childern you have infertility hurts even when you are finished with your family the pain is still there the battle wounds never go away and you always wonder why this happened to me. I know many will go on to have a healthy child maybe more but some will go on to experince painful miscarriges that are worse then the infertility itself to struggle so hard to only have it taken away, then realize underlying problems causeing miscarriges which means more medication and more pain and then there are the couples that open their hearts and homes to deserving childern to adoption they are the true surviors of the infertility battle. Yet when we have our childern we truly realize more then any other fertile couple what a true gift a child is and how precious they truley are and we will have to endure the pain and jealousy of others around us conceiving and we scream God why and when will it be my turn? I am sure we all have said they dont deserve it as much as I do but we have to eventually find peace with our infertility and no hold anger towards thoose who are not going through what we are and let the stupid comments slide of your shoulder and be strong we are a different type of person God only gives the strongest of the strongest infertility we are to be proud of what we have been through and share our stories so others can see we are to be looked up to and to be seen as heros nothing less.
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