I am sick of taking the infertility meds ( clomid, framera, follistim with IUI's) I am at the point where i hate every pregnant female that walks by me. And I hate going to work where I have to see them ( i work in a hospital) and there happy families and wonder what the hell happened to me???? I was 26 when I got pregnant with my son with no troble at, In fact i even picked the month I wanted to get pregnant in. Now four years latter look at me all i do are infertility drugs, ultrasounds. I figure that I will start aming soo low that I will never be disapointed when Iam not pregnant. Iam am begining to wonder if ther is a God or if he play's favorites and only alowes his favoret people to get pregnant and be happy.
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