Hey Ladies, well I had a lacroscopy last week to try and unblock my right fallopian tube. There were some complications. My insides are filled with scar tissue and the dr. couldn't get to them. He is not sure if the damage is from my rupshured apendex that I had years ago or perhaps at one point I had a pelvic infection. So he couln't do anything. I was informed that I won't be able to have children. That my only chance would be ivf. I am so upset, amoung many other feelings. The process of ivf sounds alittle scary plus its alot of money. But I will prob end up going that route as soon as I am physically better and alittle more emotionally stable. I am just so angry that I am having this problem, that I have no control of the situation. My bf already has 2 kids, so I just feel like I am going threw this alone, like he can't really understand the upset that I feel over this. Which I know is not true, he is always here for me and he loves me very much. I want nothing more out of life than to be a mother and everyday that goes by gets harder and harder. I really am trying to stay positive and keep the faith. But its really hard when all I want to do is cry.
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