Hello - sounds like you are living my life exactly. My husbands side of the family all had kids and there is one on the way right now. I feel like they have a whole family that doesn't include us. I am inconsolable at times and I get mad at my husband because its like... WHY ARE YOU NOT UPSET, WHY DO YOU NOT CRY, WHY CAN YOU CARRY ON WITH YOUR LIFE LIKE NOTHING IS HAPPENING !!!

One of my close friends is pregnant. I am so angry I can't stand it. I want to beat the crap out of something most of the time. Everywhere I go its baby this, baby that... what freakin celebrity is having a baby that is plastered all over the freaking grocery store !!

Lately, I feel like I've made a little bit of progress by just trying to be aware of my thoughts and when I have an negatiive or angry thought I try not to let it take me over, I just try to notice that its there, acknowlege that its a valid feeling and realize that I can either get pulled down into it or go about my business and when I reason it out I usually win becuase the logical side of my brain says, what fun is it to be all upset and pissed off all the time.

Its not a cure all by any means and I still struggle with it a lot but the thing I'm trying to focus on is just concentrating on the current moment, not overthinking and spinning out of control. I've been doing a lot of meditation and positive affirmations.

And by all means, feel free to message me and vent at any time

My father-in-law took everyone out to brunch for Mother's Day and bought all the moms in the family a rose. So every female in the party got a rose except me. This includes my step mother-in-law who has never had kids.

Pretty sensitive, huh?!?!

I think these are feelings we all feel... I know how seeing everyone around you pg when you are trying SO HARD can be so absolutely FRUSTRATING... I don't have any good advice but I just wanted to tell you you are not alone... GL with your journey

I really relate to you so much. I can't even put it into words how infertility feels. I am with you though in every way. And I hope that your family can become more sensitive to what you are going through. People are so so insensitive and they really dont mean to be.
Baby dust to you!

Thanks for putting words to what I have felt too. It is hard to be around family who have children. I have a cousin who is 10 yrs younger than i am who just had a baby. i met the new baby over the holidays. It was so hard to be happy for them. I felt like I was faking my happiness. Then, there is my husband's family--THREE new babies and they all live close to us. Uggh! I am really working on noticing my emotions without judging them. I am trying to allow myself to be upset. If I get upset that I am upset, well, that really only makes it worse. Try to take time out for yourself. if you get upset being around them, then know that it is ok to lay low and spend time away from them. You can always use the excuse you're not feeling well. I just did that today! It felt great to take a time out.) Hope this helps!

It's wild how pg women multiply when you are IF. And, how obnoxious they can seem. I am learning to own those feelings and not beat myself up because I am so full of anger and rage. Re: your husband, I would explain that you are sad all the time and keeping it inside makes it worse. Tell him you need to be emotional with him because he is the one going through this with you. Good luck and baby dust.

I'm sorry you have to deal with all of this. I've gone through some of the same issues. Five babies were born in my family/friends last year. My MIL keeps stating everyone has a baby in front of me...I'm sick of hearing it. It is like a dagger to my heart. I go to a counselor so that I can voice my feelings to someone outside of my situation and it has helped so much. I look forward to my appointments where I can just let it out. It has also helped with my marriage in that my IF struggle has not become such a burden on my husband.