I can't even begin to tell you all how emotional I got tonight when I logged on and saw all of the incredible support from everyone. You are all amazingly spectacular women and I hope that I can be half as supportive as you have been. I just went through the last weeks worth of discussions and I have really been out of the loop!

To update you on what is going on with me and the baby....
Last Monday, I had stopped bleeding and was taken off of bed rest and put to moderate rest. Well that was a mistake, because I had another u/s on thursday which showed bad bad news....
The hematoma has grown from 3cm to almost completely filling my uterus. It is surrounding the placenta and has slowly started seperating the placenta from the uterus. If it completely seperates, the baby will suffocate and I will miscarry. It is crowding the baby and needs to stop growing so that it does not compromise the baby anymore. Once the placenta starts to seperate, it is not good. My miscarriage rate is very high right now.

I have been put on full bed rest...only to get up to use the little girls room. I have to try to lay on my left side as much as possible, drink lots of water and keep a very healty diet to try to support the baby as much as possible.

Babys heart rate went from 175 to 147 in one week. My doc didn't act alarmed by that, but I am not sure that it is normal to drop that much so fast.

Needless to say I have been a mess of different emotions...not wanting to talk to anyone and crying everyday, sometimes all day... I think this is the first time my eyes have been dry.

It is just frustrating that my baby is perfectly healthy but there is this blood clot slowly killing it. I had a dream last night that a rat was in my uterus attacking my baby....

I want to especially thank lildee...Words can't say how amazing you are.
I may log on again in a few days...