Hello ladies hope all is well with my DS friends,well today is a bad day went to the dr and found out that my endo has returned with a vengance,I just ahd surgery last oct and now here I am in the same boat as before,my dr was upset that I didnt get pregnant within that year so thats why the endo returned,we tried Clomid but the only thing I got out of it was cysts,so my dr wants to try a differnt drug I think it's called femera? but I go monday to see when my lap will be:( I try to keep up with smiles and upbeat like none of this bothers me to my friends and family but inside I'm a basket case I stare at all the baby stuff that was given to me and want to sit in the middle of it all and cry until nothings left,but we put on a happy face and joke about it but no one understands except you guys and I know that ya'll understand more than anyone does,I'm trying to keep sane and my husband is just upset b/c I hurt both physically and emotionally too UGH,I just want a baby how hard can that be?JEEZ it's not like I'm asking for world peace(that would be nice too)but just a baby,come on??? Well I think I'm done ranting and feeling sory for myself,hopfully the pain meds will kick in shortly and all will be right for at least 4 hours,well good day to all of you guys:))))