I got a BFN on Friday. I feel numb. I am emotionally, mentally and physically drained. I am angry that it didn't work and then you wonder was it something I did. Just a little while ago my mom called and said maybe I should go on medication. I think I am dealing with it pretty well for it just being a BFN yesterday. I was so proud of myself for not screaming at her. I am just to tired to try and explain everything to them. I understand that my family and my Boyfriend are hurting but I am hurting more than they can understand. I know they try but it is different. I got my pictures of my two embryos and I hoped they would grow into a baby, and I am so crushed that it didn't I do not feel like I should have to console them. I cant help myself feel better how can I help them right now. I am so tired and just want to sleep. But of course its whats for dinner, got to get dog food , do this and that. I am sorry to vent but at least here I do not feel like I am being judged. I just needed to vent.
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