I am so sorry. Could it be too early to test yet? Give yourself time to feel bad before you make any decisions. Thinking of you.

Do I ever feel your pain!!!!! It's like you were able to get inside my head and perfectly express the feelings I'm experiencing right now! I got my BFN yesterday, so I know where you're coming from. Perhaps we both need to take a big step back and re-evaluate what we want to do next. I wish I had some magical, insightful words to say to make you feel better. If you want to talk, I'm here for you....just let me know.

i to got my negative result today.words can not describe the aching you feel.and you feel like nobody could understand the pain that you are feeling, but thier are people who understand,many of us out there that are going through the same experience. for some people they get good news and for others they have recieved bad. i do know that our turn will come and that one day we will both have what our heart desires.

SORRY HON . DONT EVER GIVE UP THOUGH . JUST TRUST IN GOD AND IN YOURSELF. WE HAVE ALL FELT THIS WAY AND IT SUCKS ASS I TELL YOU . I HATE THAT ANY OF US HAVE TO HURT WHEN PPL CAN HAVE HEALTHY BABIES AND THROW THEM IN GARBAGE CANS . IT MAKES NO SENSE BUT WE ALSO CANNOT EVER GIVE UP HOPE.

Girl, I had the EXACT same post - except I added some stupidity into the mix - yesterday! It's very hard to keep strong faith right now. Not that you're loosing faith but you're feel too broken to care. It's a constant struggle for me. The only way I can see and seek God through my negative HPTs, especially after IUIS, is to go outside and focus on something in nature. Something I can see. The sky, the birds, anything that is tangable evidence that the world is still going on around me - and if it's a nice day - sometimes I feel like it's even inviting me to play. Do you journal? I'm a big fan of writing down my prayers to God, or my feelings. It helps me give them up to God rather than give them up and then take them right back.

To be sane I must accept this moment - even when I don't like what's going on. We were not meant to understand God, we were meant to trust Him. I love that saying eventhough some days I can't swallow it.

And remember WHEN you get your baby - or babies - because you went through this there will never be a moment you take for granteed. You will never miss a soccor game, school play, or homeowrk assignment. You will never rather watch TV than read a story. You will be the change, you want to see in the world.

Feel better! Sorry for typing too much!

I'm so sorry! It helps me to think it's not God. I can't imagine why god would want us to be so unhappy. I think it's some other power trying to test my faith.
Just the way I deal. Hope this helps.

You expressed exactly what I have been feeling as well. I got my BFN on Friday and have been a complete mess ever since. Luckily, I have some really good friends here on DS. They have pulled me through that dark place. I have also made an appointment to see a counselor this weekend because as much as my DH and family try, they just don't understand this completely, and I can't do this alone.

We are in exactly the same place. This was my second failed IUI. We will be starting our third cycle soon (hopefully).

We are all here to lean on each other when we can't stand on our own.

I truly believe that God gives us the desire for a child and will therefore one day give us what we desire whether it be one of our own or through adoption. It is the waiting and the disappointments in the meantime that are overwhelming and a test of our faith. Seeing those negatives every month is absolutely heart breaking and I wish there were some words that I could say to you to make you not hurt, but there are none. When i feel at my worst, I try to think that no matter what one day I will have a child and because of what we have gone through it it will be soo special and we will cherish every single minute!

I appreciate all of your support....it helps to know I'm not the only one.....but the pain is just too great...physically and emotionally....the bad part is that I only have 5 days to decide what to do....
Any statistics on whether IUI is more successful if done all together, or if a month off is o.k.?

Don't give up on yourself. God has not given up on you. It is hard b/c we want what we want when we want it, but we don't know what the bigger plan is. I know it hurts so much and is very hard to accept a lot of the time. I struggle with it too.
But I have faith that you will have a baby. I hope that is enought faith to carry you through until you get yours back. (((HUGG)))

I don't know the statistics, but if you feel you need to take a month off, then I think you should. I can't see it being easier if you are tired, drained and stressed. I just skipped a cycle of IVF for an extra month to give myself, body, mind and spirit, enough time to regroup. Good luck with what ever you decide. We are here for you!

I feel like I'm in a whirlwind right now...can't seem to get my footing back....I held it together all day today, and now have a migraine, so had to skip my master's class for tonight...I'm just going to bed and cry....if God wants me to try this again, he is going to have to show me.....and give me a whole lot more strength...cause right now I don't think I will even be able to get out of bed on my own tomorrow.

Take good care of yourself

Fenway13, thank you for those wonderful and encouraging words for all of us to read. I hate questioning my faith in God when things don't go my way. You have helped me to put things back into perspective.