I too feel the way you do sometimes. I think at times its the devil knocking but other times I think its just me. I realize that God puts people into our lives to help us through the hard times. My husband is one of those people. He taught me that although we don't go to Church on Wed and sometimes on Sunday nights that God is always with us. We live out in the country and sometimes I think its just nice to walk and talk with God. Maybe if you did something like that you would feel better about it all. I wish you much luck and blessings. God bless :)

I know how I feel I feel it a lot of times too..but someone once told me that realizing it and talking about it is already a very good step..another think that you can do is talk to God and ask for help..set some quiet time between you and him and tell him about everything you did in the day..this helps me alot and remember if we do ou part even if it's little God will soon reach out to us and do the rest.Infertility and lots of other stuff in our life is a very hard experience I'm thinking the only way I can pass through this is if I focus on God so he would give me another purpose in life until it's the right time to make me a mom.

I just want to thank the both of you for taking the time to reach out to me. I will and have taken both replies into consideration. Thank you both and may God bless you both with healthy children. God Bless you both :)

I just wanted to say I totally understand how you are feeling. Right now I'm feeling rather angry at God for another BFN.

My hope meter is pretty much on empty.

Pam

I was recently in your shoes. In fact I could have written your post right down to the point of being Baptist (I am too).
I think there are a couple of things going on.

1. I do think the Devil is trying to cause you to doubt.
2. I think God is using this time to make you truely seek His face.
3. I think God is also using this time to help you evaluate where you stand.

Here's my story...I am going to copy part of my DS story (for the book) so this might be a little long...
.......During this extremely emotional time I wasnt relying on God to carry me through this. I was putting my hope in the statistics, the doctor, the medication, EVERYTHING except God! I would pray of course, and normally I would just beg God for a child of my own. But all I heard was silence. Nothing. Not a no, not a yes. Just silence. And that was the hardest point of my journey.
In addition to Daily Strength, I also post on a Christian infertility support site. One of the ladies there had started a Bible study and I really felt led to participate. I hadnt been reading my Bible like I should and this was just the kind of kick start I needed, not to mention the accountability from the other women there. We began our reading in the book of Romans and I ran across this verse:
Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently. (NIV translation)
That verse hit me like a ton of bricks. My hope has been misplaced. Its been everywhere but in God, our Savior. I then went back and read the story of Hannah. If you are not familiar with Hannah her story can be found in 1 Samuel chapter one. I have a study notes Bible and I realized that as many times as I had read the story of Hannah, I hadnt read the study notes that went along with it. So I went back and read them, because, like so many of you, I can truly relate to Hannahs longing for a child.
After Hannah openly and honestly prayed to God and then left it to God she had a major change in her attitude. I needed to tell God how I really felt and then leave it with Him. My problem was that I would give it to God but then immediately take it back and place my hope with someone or something other than Him.
So with many, many tears, I called out to God and handed him my infertility, fully and without strings attached. I cannot and will not take this burden back.

I think that we all go through seasons. Ecc. says that for everyting there is a time. A time for sorrow and for joy etc... I would just earnestly seek His face, I know it sounds hard, but it's not really. Put on some worship music or listen to KLove or you can go to Klove.com and listen for free. I know this helps me when I'm feeling far away from Him, hopefully it'll help you too. I was driving by a church one day and their sign said this, and how true it was..... Feeling seperated from God, guess who moved. God Bless!!