I am new to this tool and wanted to vent. So glad I found this online community! We started our first IVF cycle the beginning of the month, but it was cancelled this Tuesday due to my body actually ovulating before the HCG shot, which made them cancel the cycle since they couldn't have a specific time to retrieve the eggs. Has this ever happened to anyone? Has anyone had any success with their IVF treatments. Everything I read at the doctors talks about how great the chances are, but since this occured, I have doubts. I have had two failed IUIs and we will go for another IVF cycle soon. Funny, the doctor advised us not to have intercourse since he saw at least four mature follicles because he feared if I did get pregnant the possibility of a multiple pregnancy could occur. Pardon me, but I felt like slapping him!!! I found out with a call from another doctor who was quite insensitive. He kept being defensive saying this usually doesn't occur, but it wasn't something they could predict...blah, blah, blah. All I know is that I was hurt and very disappointed to have to be facing another cycle. I'm afraid of going through another disappointment and to have to pay so much money also! I'm feeling a bit obsessed with this desire to have a child, that I am wondering if I am even normal anymore. I have been up and down with depression, which certainly doesn't help the situation at all. I am angry at all my friends and family who become pregnant. I notice every person who is pregnant or has an infant. I feel like I am losing my mind, so much so, I scheduled an appointment with a psychiatrist, because I feel like I am beginning to be a bit detrimental to myself. It's crazt too because I have so much in life to enjoy, b ut can't get past this issue of not producing normally. We have adopted a child at the time she was 16 months. I missed the whole bonding with the breast feeding and so much of her infancy that I can't get past it. I love my child whether she was adopted or not means nothing, it is the desire I can't get past to experience the motherhood I never have. People say things to me like, "You can adopt again..." or "There are so many children that need someone like you..." which angers me more, because it is as if they are saying I should be happy I have a child through adoption, which I am. One has nothing to do with the other. I am so tired of crying, but can't...
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