Hi. So I just have to vent and share here, because you guys are the only people that really understand. I'm exhaused. I'm tired. I'm trying so hard to not be hopeless. After years of trying and then 2 tries of IVF, lots and lots of stress financially. Emotionaly. Spritually. My marriage suffers. My whole life is wrapped up in IF. I'm OVER controlling everything about my cycles because I have NO control over anything, really. I'm in the beginning of a donor cycle and the red tape and the hoops you have to jump through is unbelievable and it's all so expensive. I'm scared every step of the way that my donor won't come through, that some thing will go wrong. That we will just plain run out of money. I'm afraid I'll forget something or miss something or just plain FXXX something up. ARghggh. I'm so done. I want it to be over. And yet I can't give up after having come this far. Anybody? Anybody else? Thanks for letting me vent and be negative for a minute.
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