My nephew, yes, my NEPHEW, is having his son's first b-day party next month. I can't go. I have missed all the kids b-day parties this year. I did them last year and they almost killed me. In fact, I left my niece's party in tears. MY side of the family has been LESS than understanding about our troubles so I can't imagine that they're gonna understand that I can't go to my great nephew's 1st b-day party. And I know it's not a race, but do you have any idea how hard it is to have my nephew have a baby beore me? I used to change his diapers! And of course they got pregnant on the honeymoon. I love my neices and nephews and I want to see and spend time with them. I just can't do it and be SURROUNDED by kids.
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