Well, after what appeared to be a flawless IVF cycle with no hang ups leading us right through transfer...we received the dreaded call yesterday 9/28 that we received our BFN! According to my levels it concluded that my body began accepting an embie or two and than quickly began rejecting them. So close, yet so far! That always seems to be the case with us. We never get it the first time around but after we work hard we get things usually the second or third time around. I can ramble on about how this sucks, it's unfair, it hurts to have hurtled so much.. get so close only to be left back to square one again. You feel empty and alone. I know we had so many BFP's in September and i am SO happy for those who've had their struggles and got their BFP's....but how about those of us who weren't so lucky? I thought this would give us a chance to get together to vent, share our stories and hopefully feel less alone! Can anyone whose had their BFN's share with me when the hurt goes away? How do we re-group, start over and remain optimistic? I am a really strong person and so is my DH but sometimes i feel like i just want to break down and be weak? Does that make sense? Thanks for reading and posting your thoughts. Again, congrats to those who received their BFP's, good luck to those still waiting to take their BETA's and for those of you in the same boat as me, hang in there...we will eventually get our BFP's. Love you all!
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