For a while I felt like nobody understood me. All my friends and family keep saying it will happen, it will happen. The only things that come out of my mouth are sarcastic remarks. Where I work I get 1 or 2 customers a week telling me they are pg. I can't congratulate them anymore. One day down the street from my house a 19 yr. old killed 2 of her kids and put them in trash bags under her house. I was so upset ater that day a very sweet girl comes in knowing my situation and tells me "God knows when your ready to have a baby". I burst out telling her "If God knows, why does he give them to the one that are just gonna throw them away". I told her I was sorry and I ran to the restroom. I am just so mad that I don't know how to stop. My family, friends, & customers don't deserve the things that I am saying. How do I stop?? Please help. I feel like I am going to have a nervous breakdown. it's been 4 years & nothing.
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