I started my two week wait. I am so nervous! This is our first cycle with clomid (50 mg) and I know I ovulated, which truly is great thing! Both our first and second were conceived in February, and although I would be ecstatic to be pregnant, I would also be soo worried! My MIL is convinced that if you do not change the beginning, you will be consistently getting the same results. She thinks we need to pretty much stick to the adoption plan, or else wait till the summer to try and get pregnant. I do not think she fully understands the heart ache of testing month after month, and just being so empty-armed. We face a 3-5% (which is only a 1-2% risk higher than the general population) of having another child with our daughter's brain abnormality (she lived 5 amazing weeks.) With our son's heart defect, (Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome-HLHS, which he lived 7 weeks with) our chances of having a child with a heart defect (which is not to say it would necessarily be HLHS) is 25-50%, because of my husband's heart defect, our son's, and than our niece's (HLHS also, but is seven months old!) There is just such a rush of emotions. So much unknown. Our feeling is that third time is a charm, but really we have no idea what our next child will bring. If we have a normal, healthy child, I really will not know what to think.
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