I understand that things are not going to be easy in this process. I have learned that lesson and continue learning it daily. When one positive this happens, there are always 2 set backs. I am happy for everyone that I know that are getting pg without trying or planning. I really am. However no matter what I tell myself, a pic of me dies everytime I hear the news. And I realize they are telling me constantly because they are happy, but it hurts so much to know that while they already have 2 and are now pg again, I can't even concieve one. I was so excited when I started my period this month without the provera. That was the first time in 3 years that has happened, but it seems that I still didn't ovulate. So now I wait to see if I will start on my own next month or if I will have to take more meds. Then I hear 2 seperate couples found out today that they are pg and it is like knifes to my heart and nothing I can do will stop that hurt. I tell myself that I am happy for them and that God is blessing their family with children, but then I wonder where I went wrong to not have the same blessings.
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