Im not gonna lie,I am a very angry and aggressive person.I was abused since the age of 6 first by my mother and then by a sister.This lasted with both until i was 15 .I was verbally and mentally abused.The sexual part is what still haunts me.My mother used me as a toy with no care of my well being.My sister took advantage and used me for financial gain.To this day now that I am a full grown 6-3 255 lb man she wont face me realizing that I might be angry at her.My mom denies everything even the pictures just saying she was play full with me.My sister who has a child by me ,denies everything.To come to grips with why I am so angry I went to thereapy and he told me in extreme cases of abuse the mind develops its own way of healing for me that was being angry and workingout.To control my anger I went to meetings,I went to clinics ,but the only way for me to be happy was to be around a normal family.To see the dynamic of a real family not one of abuse and violence.So in a way my anger fueled me, to find normal non threating relationships.I am married now I am 32 and my wife who I love dearly has no exact idea of my sexual abuse. wants to have my family over for group thererapy. To which I flat said NO and proceeded to break my TV and a couch.My anger fueled me to a defensive state. I just want no part of this Im tired of bringing it up Yes I was abused and I dont want to think about it anymore.I guess I rather be angry,