I joined DS because I was desperate for a support group with people like me, people I could tell the truth to who would understand, before whom I didn't have to feel as ashamed as I would before "normal" people.Now I am craving exposure and acceptance. I don't even know what I'm exposing because it's all the product of my mind and my daily notebook writing but there are still no memories attached. Why is this coming first? Is it something I need to accept before the memories will come? I am asking for your help. I am here because I need help. I just feel more and more jangled and anxious. But I am scared to post it. So I'm asking for encouragement or if it's not something acceptable to do I guess I need to know that. Am I crazy? Somehow just telling my therapist doesn't seem like enough. What am I trying to do? I am trying to make it a real part of me and not just some weird stuff I write in a notebook. I think this kind of issue is what this forum is for, yet I have already formed the idea that I'm supposed to stick to some mature, helpful persona here - when that's only part of who I am and not the part that came here for support.
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