Hi I am new to this and am just looking for some answers... I was a normal kid until i was 11 thats when everything went so wrong. I was first raped by a guy in the year above me at my school, even though i found it so hard to handle i was just coping. I didn't have to support from my family and the stress after it happened made my mum and i fight non stop. My father had stayed out of our fights for about 4 months but one night when me and my mum were having another fight he stepped in. But instead of just yelling like my mum and i did he took me into his bedroom and forced me to have sex with him the whole time telling me that i brought it on myself because i lied about being raped. He has always been a bit over touchy with me but i never really thought twice about it.Ever since then he has been sexually abusing me and everytime telling me that it is my fault! I hate him so much and even though hes my father i want him to be dead just so he will stop, but i dont just want him dead i want my mum to cause wont stop him doing it! I just have two questions for you.. Is it really my fault? & Am i just a sick as my father becuse i want my parents to be dead? Please can you help me...
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