Im only 20 years old right now. I am sooooooooooo far away from being married or having kids. I mean, ive barely just started dating. But my thoughts are often racked with the question: "What if my kids are molested like I was?". It makes me fucking naucious just to even imagine anything like that happening to my own babies. I feel like im gonna turn into some sort of neurotic mother or something, always in fear and always looking out waiting for some bastard to get ahold of my kids. Im so worried that Ill marry a creep who will destroy our kids. My therapist asked me once: "What would you do if your husband sexually abused your kids?". I immidiatley said with almost no emotion or expression: "Ide kill him". Then after that I just became more worried about this.... Shit...I dont think I would be able to handle it. Im not strong enough. Ide go fucking nuts. Im sorry, I dont mean to swear, but im really freaked out by this question in my mind and when im freaked out I swear.
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