I am new hear and I am looking for support. About 2 months ago my father was diagnosed with kidney cancer. That is when I experienced my 1st panic attack. I went to the E.R. with what I thought was a heart attack. It wasn't. Just stress. My life went into a tailspin from there. I visited the E.R. 3 times in 3 weeks complaining of what I was convinced was kidney cancer or pancreatic cancer. I had every test in the book and nothing was wrong. I still didn't believe the doctors. I was close to being suicidal because I couldn't imagine going through this for the rest of my life. My family doctor referred my to a phychiatrist. She put me on celexa and zyprexa (for racing thoughts). She is fantastic. The zyprexa was only short-term because of all the nasty side effects. I was doing really well until about 5 days ago. Now I am conviced the leg pain and ovulation pain(something I have had for years) is ovarian cancer. I can't see past that. I had a panic attack on Friday of last week and have not been able to get out of this funk. I am so fearful. Why is it that every little twinge or pain I get I automatically think it is cancer? I tell myself it is normal and then I google every symptom and I come up with cancer. I can't stay away from the computer. Am I going to live the rest of my life with this crippling fear. I can't take it anymore. Help! :(
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