HPV Support Group
Human papillomavirus is a diverse group of DNA-based viruses that infect the skin and mucous membranes of humans. More than 100 different human papillomavirus (HPV) types have been characterized. Some HPV types cause benign skin warts, or papillomas, for which the virus family is named. HPVs associated with the development of such "common warts" are transmitted...
It has been over a year since I was diagnosed with HPV. It was with my first sexual partner, and he betrayed me down the bone by saying he was "clean" from any disease.
A long, miserable story, made short, not only have I no desire for a relationship, but intimacy is out of the question. Any potentional man, that acts interested, there's just one sentence in my mind:
"I wonder what STD he has..."
I had thought--probably like many, that I had waited for the "right one." When reality hit me in the face, I became cynical and angry...but mostly untrusting.
The thought of having HPV, is not what bothers me. I am no stranger to chronic ilnesses... it is the betrayl that bothers me, but HPV was the instigator.
Since HPV, I have had a string of yeast infections that never seem to go away, burning, and other "fun" stuff...
It appears my feelings towards HPV, invoke rage and feelings that I can not trust a potential partner. I still have a feeling that sex is over-rated, and just another tool to back slap you with, when you break up....
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A long, miserable story, made short, not only have I no desire for a relationship, but intimacy is out of the question. Any potentional man, that acts interested, there's just one sentence in my mind:
"I wonder what STD he has..."
I had thought--probably like many, that I had waited for the "right one." When reality hit me in the face, I became cynical and angry...but mostly untrusting.
The thought of having HPV, is not what bothers me. I am no stranger to chronic ilnesses... it is the betrayl that bothers me, but HPV was the instigator.
Since HPV, I have had a string of yeast infections that never seem to go away, burning, and other "fun" stuff...
It appears my feelings towards HPV, invoke rage and feelings that I can not trust a potential partner. I still have a feeling that sex is over-rated, and just another tool to back slap you with, when you break up....
:/
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
Only thing I can tell you is that everyone is different. I'm with you, any man who shows an interest in me is placed under the microscope. Doubt I'll ever be at ease about sex again. Unfortunately, hpv is everywhere, most people get it at some point in their lifetimes.
How long has it been since you were diagnosed? Is there someone you can talk to about your anger and feelings of betrayal? I felt the same way...but it has been nearly 5 months for me, and I am starting to let it go. Hope you'll feel better soon too.