Hi. Here's my story, any advice, opinion, support or input would be greatly appreciated. I had an abnormal pap in Feb 09, never expecting it. I was at the end of a bitter two year divorce, I have two small boys and was one year into a brand new wonderful relationship. My new partner and I have been open about everything and neither of us are concerned where this originated. Anyway about a week or two after my doc told me and said he wanted to do a colposcopy, I developed a major irritation down there, was treated for a yeast infection and a UTI, but didn't work. The irritation continued and this postponed my colposcopy until April. Eventually after getting tested for all other STD's and getting a vaginal culture, I was negative for everything else and my culture came back with "mild Group B Strep" which I was told was normal for some women. I went back again after these two months of irritation, not knowing what was going on and my doc discovered a few internal warts which was devastating. I was treated with TCA and then began to have irritation in the anal area as well which totally freaked me out. Two more visits with docs saying they saw nothing, then eventually my doc found a few small warts in that area too. I felt horrible and devastated. This whole time I am being told that condyloma normally does not cause significant irritation, pain or any other major physical discomforts, but that is what I had in both areas. I ended up having to get one internal wart and the two external ones surgically removed (anal area) and the vaginal ones kept popping up here and there. They are pin head size with only one or two at a time but they have kept appearing. I continued to have irritation in both areas with the visible warts being "very minor" as I was told and eventually my regular OBGYN referred me to a gynecological oncologist for evaluation. I have gone to him 3 times so far. First time, he treated two small external in vaginal area with TCA, saw nothing in anal area despite my irritation and prescribed Acyclovir for a few weeks which he said is an anti-viral that could help. It did nothing for me. I went back and he again treated the same small ones with TCA and one more small one in the external anal area that I noticed. I did go to a follow up with the rectal doc who again checked internally and said he saw nothing more and to come back in 3 months. I continue to suffer from mild to moderate irritation, mostly externally in the vaginal area and around the anal area as well. This has been on and off for the last 8 months of my life and I am frustrated, worried and feeling quite hopeless. The oncologist said that sometimes hpv can cause the irritation without major visible symptoms and there's not much he can do. I don't know what to think. This bothers me everyday and I feel like it might never go away. I am overly concerned about more warts and examine myself on a daily basis which is exhausting. I want to be able to not worry but these physical symptoms make me think that something is just not right. The oncologist also looked again at my cervix at the last appt and said it looks pretty normal to him. Does that mean I should still get another pap smear to confirm. I also want to get the HPV test to determine what strain I have. Does it test for low risk strains also? My partner has shown no symptoms so far and since we were together without protection for over a year before this happened, I've been told to assume he already has the virus as well but may be asymptomatic. Does that mean we cannot reinfect each other? Since all this has been going on, I have also been worried about hpv in my mouth and nose. I feel like I am looking too hard and need to let it go. I don't see anything major but have given unprotected oral sex to him assuming it is safe, not intending to do anything wrong. We both want to feel normal and have had sex with a condom and once without since he said we both have it, it shouldn't matter much at this point. I don't know what to believe but the last 8 months have been so hard. I am a very healthy, fit, in shape, single mom in my early 30's. I take care of myself but have been under a lot of stress. I'm wondering why my body doesn't seem to be clearing this virus..... I need some input or opinions. I just want to feel normal again, I have a chance to rebuild my life for myself and my kids and I am finally in a great relationship, and now this happens. If anyone has anything to say that could help or give me a new perspective, please post. I would really appreciate it!!!! Thanks for reading all of this and God Bless.
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