I found out I had HPV last October. It hasn't been the easiest thing to deal with since it keeps coming back or maybe I just didn't get rid of it all the first time. This last time was so painful I couldn't go to work or school. (In 5 years I have never called into work... It was horrible.) I've gone through the hysterical stage and the I can't believe this happened to me stage but I'm stuck in the why me stage and I think I'll be there the rest of my life. I've found very little positive in this whole thing, I value myself and treat my body way better than I did before. I was talking to someone for about a month and decided to hold of on sex until I could trust him enough to tell him but it never happened and I was grateful neither happened. And I'm also thankful for the fact that I don't have the type that causes cancer or the fact that I don't have cancer at all. This virus sucks but it won't kill me. I'm struggling with the idea of having a boyfriend. I've been single for almost 2 years now and I'm ready for a relationship but I just can't imagine a man being okay with this. I know many people say sex isn't a big deal but I'm in my early 20's, so for the guys I date it is a big deal and obviously I like it too. I think about when I find someone, will I tell them or will I wait to tell them and just make sure that I'm being safe... I just don't want to tell someone and it end up getting out. I can't imagine someone loving me that much to be okay with this. Why someone want to deal with this when they don't have to? I just really need to hear from someone who started a successful relationships after they got or some positive encouragement at all! Thank you for reading.:) Besides my mother I have nobody to talk to about this.
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