You know I have been saying the statement "Even if just for tonight" for awhile now. I am 19 and live in Tucson Arizona. Technically I am not homeless...right now. I moved back in with my mom, step dad, and cousin after being gone for a year and a half about a week ago. I graduated my rehab and realized that I had nowhere to go. Before going to rehab I lived in my ex girlfriends car...shelters, jail...I know these best. I try to push away any good "home" because it's just not "the same" for me. I know that sounds completely fucking nuts but it's the truth. I am here....but for how long? I mean it scares me. Living under someone Else's rules. This time last year I had it made...good job, fiance, own apartment...I mean I am starting over and I hate it. I want my own life and my own place back. I live out of my trash bags now... to afraid to unpack them. I mean I am not worried about my mom making me leave or anything. It is just the "what if's". I mean so yeah. If anyone knows how I can just let go and embrace what I have I am open to suggestions.
Posts You May Be Interested In
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...