You know I have been saying the statement "Even if just for tonight" for awhile now. I am 19 and live in Tucson Arizona. Technically I am not homeless...right now. I moved back in with my mom, step dad, and cousin after being gone for a year and a half about a week ago. I graduated my rehab and realized that I had nowhere to go. Before going to rehab I lived in my ex girlfriends car...shelters, jail...I know these best. I try to push away any good "home" because it's just not "the same" for me. I know that sounds completely fucking nuts but it's the truth. I am here....but for how long? I mean it scares me. Living under someone Else's rules. This time last year I had it made...good job, fiance, own apartment...I mean I am starting over and I hate it. I want my own life and my own place back. I live out of my trash bags now... to afraid to unpack them. I mean I am not worried about my mom making me leave or anything. It is just the "what if's". I mean so yeah. If anyone knows how I can just let go and embrace what I have I am open to suggestions.
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