About a year ago, I started a relationship with a girl I am now in love and incredibly happy with. I've always held the belief that you have the best sex with someone you love and know very well. Early in our relationship, I developed a performance anxiety that later fed into, and I believe developed my HOCD.
During sex, I experience intrusive fears and thoughts, and occasionally experience physical symptoms such as a loss of sensation in my penis, or an over sensitivity leading to premature ejaculation. Particularly when I lose sensation it leads into an intense anxiety that this means I am not aroused by women. Whenever this happens, I am unable to curb the anxiety even though I know full well I have brought it on myself with OCD behaviours before and during sex. There are highs and lows of my HOCD, but the physical toll it has had on my sexual performance is by far the worst side effect.