I made the worst decision of my life two weeks ago, and have been regretting it and stressing about it ever since. I had sex with someone that is considered a high risk. Where my head was that day, I'll never know. I haven't been tested yet, but my gut is already telling me I'm HIV positive. I'm not sleeping with anyone, and will not. I'm just so scared to get tested and know the truth. I have sleepless night after sleepless night. My body is off. I have absolutely no appetite (an early symptom!) and haven't really eaten in days. I want to get tested because I guess there is the chance that I'm negative... but I'm scared to know. Is that weird? Is it too early to get tested since my 'encounter' was only two weeks ago? I heard it can be undetectable for up to 6 months? I guess I don't what to know either, because I would never know how to tell my family. I really wouldn't see the point in living anymore... No, I'm not suicidal, but I really don't know how I would live if the test came back positive....
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