~As it says in my profile I have only beendiagnost with HIV for two years, the same for my loss if eyesight. I found I was positive, then two weeks later I went blind. When I found I thought I was going to die. I didn't even know there was a difference between HIV and AIDS, I thought they were both one in the same(uneducated).Now with I have been dealing with being positive for two years, I know very little about something that is basically apart of my life for the rest of my life.My immediate family knows and have known since the beginning with the acception of my youngest daughter who is 11. Her mother and I thought it would be best if she didn't know then. I recently decided to tell her, well let me change that, I was in away forced into telling her by her Mom, the things she was hearing and being told. I am in recovery clean and drug free for two and ahalf years and do my best to always tell my kids the truth, which wasn't the case three years ago. So keeping this from her was being to bother me. She started to ask me questions like why can't she continue to help me check my blood sugar level anymore, why can't she use the same soap I use, how come she can't wash her clothes with mine amymore and the one I dislike the most is she was told she shouldn't kiss me anymore. All of this was being told to her by her Mom who has worked in the healthcare business for as long as she has a job.She and I are divorced and have been since 2000.She has told everyone in her family(gossip). They talk and my daughter walks in and catch bits and peices, my son and my Lady both suggested I just go on and tell her,so I did. Before I did I told her mother I was doing so, she told me she wanted to be there and I said no. Needless to say she did not like that and I did not care. The only reason she wanted to be there was cause she didn't want me to tell my daughter that what she was telling her wasn't true. I can't read books tofind out what is good for her (my daughter) to read and don't trust that her mother is going to tell her the truth. My family is just as uneducated as I am, infact they know less then me.I need the help of people who are just like me going through the same things,feelings,thoughts and experiences to help me to get educated and find more about this virus that we all deal with day in and day out, you guys will give me true facts not theory. Thats what I need. Its not easy to deal with this and not be able to read up on it on my own .
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