I have to live my life crying on the inside. Every minute I fell that my tears will break free from my body. My body achs from the false strength I have to pretend to have. I try so hard day by day to go on as if nothing has ever happened TRYING TO FAKE IM 100% with my false smile and joyess attitude I even laugh when I wanna scream. I just dont want to do it anymore!! I keep hoping it'll get better or atleast enjoy starring back at myself. This shit rips any self assurance and any self respect ive worked so hard to gain. I'm devastated from my head to my feet, my skin crawls with the thought of myself.. HOW CAN THIS BE!??? I can't except this!! I can't get over this!!! I cant understand why me?? Why can't I be normal?
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