All i ever get anymore is pressure from all sides. The perfect older sister. The domineering mother. Nothing is ever good evough. If i get a 95 or over, it is great, 90-95, expected, 85-90, nothing mentionable except to be sneered at, 80-85, barley acceptable, and anything below an 80 is a failure. I am not allowed to be "average". I must be "the best". it is never good enough. My successes are not mentionable and my failures are nagged at and degraded day after day. I need to know how i can deal with the pressure. To be able to acccept the average. To stop hating myself. If anybody has any ideas, i will be open to trying anything. I am getting pretty desperate. I just want to feel okay with what i can and cannot do.
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