My so called boyfriend of 7 years has always struggled with drugs on and off, even though he did keep it a secret for about a year. When I first found out how bad it was we had just had our first child (now 6), I broke up with him as he was very addicted to crack and he soon after when to jail.... He got clean in there and about 3 months after him being home we tried our relationship again. It was going great, he was working doing house work, being a loving boyfriend and I thought this was the person I first fell in love with. Then when I was pregnant with our daughter (now 2) I noticed he started to change since I was home due to sick leave, he lost his job as he never showed up half the time, his attitude changed he was mean. This time it was drinking and cocaine, it lasted just after my daughter came home as I had a c-section and he stayed with me day and night for the first month. Things once again were going great, until that Summer (about 6mnths later). He met some new people that introduced him to Oxy's, he found out just how much money he could make off of this stuff and didnt touch it at first (that lasted a few weeks) Then he got really bad on them well we had our trailer threw the summer, didnt do anything with the kids at all, his life was hanging with looser people. He then realized how much he was messing up and after that summer he kicked everyone in his life that was bad out and he spent a week or so detoxing on his own. He then again got clean and then about 6 mnths after that, here comes an old friend he happen to meet at the gas station, she introduced him to the world of HEROIN....... We are now going on just over a year of this bullshit. He has destroyed my life, I use to be such a outgoing and happy person. Now I am depressed, and feel worthless. Our love life is totally over not only because he actions have made me not interested, but he now sleeps all day and is up all night, and when he sleeps its in the basement. I cant handle it. Its not fair to my kids and that is one main reason why I hate myself as I know my job as a mother is to keep my kids away from people like him but yet I find it so hard to do that as they love him so much. I have asked him to leave twice in the last 6 months but he just wont leave, short of calling the cops or moving myself (cant afford todo) I have no idea what todo.... I cant confide in my family as they have all seceded in life and I fell like this big faille to allow this to go on in my life............. I just want out!!!!!!!! He takes all our money and spends it and when I say I am not going to give him money he just makes living in the house with him so miserable. I dont know what else I can do, I just wish he would get help cuz I know he hates living like this...... :(
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