within the last few months i feel like i have lost my heart, my boyfrien got arrested with possession of heroin and i had no idea he was even on it. i work 6 days a week, he is unemployed, i solely provide for our 2 children and pay all the bills for our family. i feel so much resentment, anger, guilt, hate pain but at the same time the most love you can have for someone. but i have no trust. i want to help with all i have, but resent him needing it. im so confused. he is leaving for rehab in 2 days and im pissed that he is missing easter, i have to search for child care, and he isnt going to be here because of that awful nasty way of life he was living. he is very difficult to be around because all i want to to is punch him for being so selfish and so self concerned. i thought when u have children you grow up and live as you can for those angels not end up a dope head
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