I have been with my partner for 9 years we have two children aged 5 and 6 and I have a child from a previous relationship aged 11 When we first met I did not know he had a drug problem he never told me he hid it well I had never been around drugs or an addict before and had no idea I was so nieve I only found out when I was pregnant with our second child since then I've had all the chaos bs manipulation him using the family money for drugs the moods the arguments the sly tricks he uses heroin and crack and cannabis the cannabis daily the heroin and crack on and off mostly on he is also mentally ill and deluded he has run me into the ground he is also lazy doesn't work clean or fck all I have tried alsorts to help him nothing works he stays clean for short periods then I catch him using again he is on a methadone programme which obviously isn't working I've suggested rehab and detox he thinks he can do it on his own despite constantly relapsing he is short tempered and a bully to me mentally and financially he is also a shit role model for the kids and has no time for them he's a shit dad although he loves them I'm stuck in a dirty undecorated house as he won't do it and I have no money to pay for it to be done I am deeply depressed on antidepressants etc suffer anxiety this is not just due to him it was there before but the situation makes it worse I have had enough I hate him I've been diagnosed bipolar don't know if I can cope as single mum on my own and my son is hard work cause he is autistic I have no family or friends to help I'm so scared I also don't know how to get rid of him both from the house then my life cause he will mither me and want to see the kids I've told him I hate him and he doesn't seem keen on leaving and plus has nowhere to go he would be homeless I feel on the verge of a nervous breakdown I hate him so much for coming into my life with this problem and having kids with me whilst hiding his dirty secret I don't know if I'm strong enough to cope much longer
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