Yesterday was horrid, on top of being my dearly departed Mom's birthday, first one since she passed, all the commotion on this site really set me back. I was heartsick on top of heartsick, and I am sure I am not alone. The activities of goose/pineybob and lord knows how many alias profiles he has, is so completely uncalled for, it is beyond my comprehension. I understand rage, I've had it several times myself; but this is not rage, it is premeditated evil. As do many on this site, I have multiple illnesses, I simply do not need another menace in my house, truthfully, it is more than I can handle both emotionally and physically. Yesterday, I became hyper-paranoid, I thought my computer was bugged, I locked all my doors, I could not answer my phone, and well, basically, I was hysterical. I did not sleep well last night, I had physical pain beyond what I usually endure; and I ended up taking more Loritab than my normal, prescribed dosage as a result. I am not better today, I got up weepy and I am still in great physical and emotional pain. I know there are some people here that will say it is my own fault for allowing this to hurt me, that I have the power to decide and no one can make me feel what I feel other than myself. Well, for a normal, healthy person, that may be true, however, like many others here, I am not well psychologically, as much as I am not well physically. So to say just let it go, may be a lot easier said than it is done. Some of us are strong, some of us are not strong, some of us are strong one day and not strong the next. Personally, I do not think it is wise to "group" people together; we may all be in the same boat, so to speak, but we do not and should not be expected to be the same in ever aspect of our being. What is black and white to one, is grey to another. So, congratulations Goose, or whoever you may be today. I hope you are proud of yourself, and feel vindicated and victorious in your relentless quest to create chaos and inflict pain upon the fragile, innocent, ill people like myself, that are here, for the most part, to give and receive comfort and companionship during this difficult time in our lives.
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