I'm going out of mind , I don't want to look for sex somewhere else because that's what's gotten me into a lot of my troubles now. I have been honest with my wife about past liaisons with men and women . I'm working on that one , something to do with repressed stuff. By the way that tell all was tree years ago.. I feel that I'm being punished for it, and i know that my wife has her own problems , we are both 40 and the stuff that has happened to us happened when we were 12,and 13 for her 12 , she was raped and i was interfered with by guys in a boys home that were older by about 3 years . WHATEVER >>I hate talking about this shit . I think it was the lack of sex or the way i was being treated by my wife that led me to do the things i did or I could be wrong ,maybe it was there all along the, gaynish that is ...She's made me pay for it big time , told friends and its a small place ....She says that she still loves me but i find it hard to believe ..not having sex isn't so bad it's the lack of affection and compassion that gets me even before I had told her everything, that just gave her a sword to wield against me. I should have known..
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