I dont even know if this is the right place for this. But here goes.... As most of you know I was in an extremely abusive relationship. He systematically manged to deplete my self esteem and my confidence. Growing up I always knew I was pretty. I never had problems attracting guys. Now though, I just dont know anymore. I am so insecure and I know that is a turn off for guys. Also I am so worried about my judgement when it comes to men anymore that I am thinking of completely foregoing a relationship. I started dating my ex when I was 15 and married him when I was 19. Now we are seperated and divorce is pending. While with him I got up to 200 pounds due to depression. I am now a nice healthy weight and am going to the gym regularly. I have recently ( a couple months ago) met someone I am interested in, but I am so insecure with myself that I am afraid to let anyone too close. How do I get past the voice of my ex in my head telling me I am not good enough for anything but sex. I do not want a strictly physical relationship. I want what I see most of you all have which is loving honest relationships. How to I learn to trust again and most importantly how do I regain my self esteem?
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