My bf would kill me if he found out I posted such personal things about him on the internet, but whatever. Anyway! So, the other night I bought these pills called Horny Goat Weed. They're supposed to make men "happier" (I think that's a nice way to put it). I didnt really think they'd work, I just kind of hoped they would, even though my friend working at the store told me they did for sure work. Anyhow, I told him "take these now!", and surprisingly he did. A few hours (many hours) later I'd completely forgotten about it and we were driving home from dropping our friend off (this is last night, by the way) and he says to me "Oh hey, those pills are kicking in". !!! So I thought "Yay! Naked time!" No. Nothin'. He started tweakin' out on the computer and completely forgot about me back in the bedroom. So, after two and a half hours of sittin' around lookin' cute in the bedroom for nothin' I decided to handle business myself (and by "myself" I mean with the aid of my special pink rabbit friend). Well, naturally this is when he comes in, and catches me. For whatever reason, just the thought of that thing makes him uncomfortable, and he just does not like it. So he gives me a look and leaves the room. Not the reaction you'd hope for really, but whatevs. After a while, I somehow fell asleep. He SAYS he tried to wake me up, but I just wouldnt (bullshit) and he wanked it in bed next to me! WTF! He has a low sex drive (he doesnt produce alot of testosterone), so when his weiner is happy I think it should be happy with me. Am I wrong to be a little bitter about this?
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