This is probably a common thing. I thought my ex boyfriend was a good guy when I met him. He turned out to be: a drunk, quarrelsome, he made me lose my job by harassing me at work. He was wealthy but he'd use money as a tool of guilt and manipulation, and he wasn't generous. We had great sex, but he'd always keeps stuff from me. It took a while to find out he was married. I tried to leave him but we were "addicted". He went through a divorce, his temper started being physically abusive. I hated his temper, his drinking, his kids. I usually like kids, kids love me. His were awful. He went to jail for drunk and disorderly, I left him, he beat me, we tried having a relationship, he thinks I lie. I tried leaving him. My ex from before him, who is the NICEST man on the planet wants to get back together. I'm not sexually interested. I am having a hard time. I am afraid to meet people because when I fall in love or am sexually aroused, they turn out to be horrible jerks who are bad for me. I want to be sexually interested in someone who is nice and good. I don't know what to do.
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