I'm in a 5-year relationship with my boyfriend. We live together in his house. He earns a good salary; I limp along financially, self-employed and working from home. I suffer from depression and have been on Venlafaxine/Efexor for God knows, 8 years or something. I never really fancied my bf when we first got together - just felt desperately lonely, wanted some attention & the thrill of a new relationship. I'll be 46 at Xmas and sometimes I think I don't want a child , I'm too stuck in my ways and all my best eggs will have gone. Other times I panic that I'm wasting my last fertile years staying with my bf, with whom I so don't want sex. I went to see a psycho-sexual counsellor, and when I said I didn't fancy my bf he said I didn't have a problem. But I do, because I can't make a decision to leave him and wait for someone else to come along. And how the hell does anyone make such huge decisions as, Hey, I think I'll create a whole new human being. ??? Stuck. Have been stuck for 5 years. Help!
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