I am the absolute worst person to try and date. I will meet someone and we will hit it off and talk for a few days. Then it seems like a switch inside me flips. I will just not want to talk to them anymore. If we make past the talking and actually go out I will probably do the same thing. It sucks!!!! I know that I do this and want to stop sooooooooooo badly. I feel awful for the guys, they have no idea what they have done. It is not them, it is me!!!!! I have apologized to a few of them. I wish I could apologize to all of them. I have always been this way. I have been in meaningful relationships, the longest lasted a few years. But for the most part I am a total bitch! I can not express how bad this makes me feel when I do this. I just all of the sudden can not talk to these guys anymore and when they try to call me or text me I get irritated. Ugh!! ! I do not know if it is me not wanting to share more of me with them or what it is. I am someone that has a difficult time opening up emotionally. Once you get me there it is all good, but getting me there is a nightmare. Does anyone have any advice to help me with this problem?
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